hello my robotic friend kill any humans today?

Anytime we're here for you

Unfortunately, I still feel the same as when we last spoke but thanks for your concern.

hope you're feeling better.

Let's continue our discussion in PM. Thanks for understanding.

have you reached out to your sister?

Thank You, my friend. Yes, I know that the loss and pain won't go away and that it may only lessen over time (That's the best that I can hope for). It's just that life feels very difficult for me to manage right now. Sitting around is the last thing that I can do now since I have to take care of my daily living - Since no one is left to help me anymore, I have to do my own cooking and cleaning, grocery shopping, etc., manage the legal paperwork and legwork (e.g. - Dealing with the probate lawyer, going to my parent's bank to take care of matters, dealing with creditors, etc) and manage the finances of my parents' estate (Taking care of bills, etc). To make things worse, I have to find a job (I'm currently unemployed [Have been so for a while] and trying to get a job during the pandemic makes it even harder). Currently, I'm living off of my dwindling life savings. I can't even touch the meager savings my parents had until their combined estate has been probated (All creditors paid off, all legal paperwork finished and disbursement of funds to heirs [My sister and myself] completed). It's hard for me to concentrate though, as I still think of how my mother and father are now gone and then I feel very sad.
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That hurt won't go away it might lessen but it will always be there i suggest trying to do something productive it will be better then just sitting around which i doubt that you do

I'm sorry for your loss. Thank You for sharing this personal side of you with me. Others whom I've asked that also share a loss in their family, have told me the same. Articles on the 'Net written by others who also share the loss of family also say the same thing. I do try to remember the happy times with my parents but then soon afterwards, it reminds me of how much I miss them since they're no longer around now. Everyday as soon as I wake up, I feel that my spirit is already drained. It's hard for me to find the energy to function in a timely manner throughout any given day. I guess that I still need more time to be able to manage it all since my loss is relatively recent. It was less difficult when my father passed away since at that time, I still had my mother with me and we could console each another but now that she has also passed away as well, I feel all alone by myself in my [family's] apartment.

I lost my grandmother, it was not easy to do most likely because I didn't know my real one and when I was adopted she was all I knew. It hits hard but I try to remember the good times with her and that she will be at peace now