Problems

[Princess Felicia]

ok so lets see tomorow is going to be very annoying and hard lets begin with my problems then what i have to do

(this is cause idk)

I have mental isues a few of them and they not good

Parinoid Skitsofrania(sp?)
DID- Disosiative Idenity Disorder (Multiple personalitys)
Bipolar (if you dont know your an ididot)
Manic Depresion
Adhd

my biological mom has more and these are mine i was also born on drugs yes im a drug baby everything that exsisted in 1988 she did while prognent with me pluss abuse afterwords

im odd i dont realy hold grudges and i have somewhat forgiven her but she is doing drugs again i live with my grandma and have since i was resqued (literly my two uncles came all the way to Cali and brought me back)

tommorow me and my grandma have to go to bio moms house to talk about her new adiction and her boyfriends adiction (he called me about some pills and such untill he figured it was me and freaked)

so tomorow i have to deal with that today was ok thankfully (i halucinated very little) (o and i dont take meds for anything) so i need some pointers or tips or anything to help me stay calm tomorow and in control or anything

[diaperdei]

well your always there to help me so ill do evreything i can to help you

first off your problems maybe real but dont think about them and the effects wont be as bad lots of people have all those things and more so i wouldnt worry the slightest about anything to stay calm just try to think of something really nice or all the good things that can happen mabye you could help your mom very very much and sooo many more you could chane her entire life and your own for the better in my mind it would be a great day and even if it turns bad (HIGHLY doutful ) just think of somthing calm and realxing mabye a ice soft diaper and think about how when you get back youll be able to use one and it willcalm you down greatly giving you something to anticipate mabye if you really need to take a little benadril or somthing like cold medicine to make you mcuh more relaxed or sliglty sleepy it works wonders in my stressed life so many more good things can com out of that day than bad things can
be sure to get plenty of sleep and always remebr your mother and entire faqmily will ALWAYS love you NO MATTER WHAT!




thank god for years of pshycaitry classes

remember you mean alot to alot of peoples,... lifes including mine ;)



from ~ your freind forever, Nicole

[Princess Felicia]

well the her love is a no she was the one to abuse me so i doupt that but thanks *hugs* ^.^

[diaperdei]

i know it sounds strange but deep down she loves you i know you dontbeleive me but just try to ok i know alot of this from horrible life experinces

*hugs*

you were there for me and im here for you

:')

[Princess Felicia]

thank you Dei you are a good friend inddeed

[Chaoswolf]

I just know im insane and im not going to get into details because ill drive you away :D. Lets just say me and hannibal would be friends lol

[Princess Felicia]

hmm how did i know

[Chaoswolf]

lol..........you rly dont........I need a room with padded walls be for I have a break down lol. I dont know how much longer I can control my insanity..........and im being serious

[kittykimmy]

hmm...well i pray that everything will be fine tomorro (prayer works :D) ive known a few friends dat experienced alot of pain and ive experienced a lil myself...i try to keep myself optimistic whenever troubles come but yea...i'll be praying for u ^^

[diaperdei]

*hands wolf cookie*

that help?

[diaperdei]

good luck princess were all here prayin that things go the best ;)

[kittykimmy]

lol..........you rly dont........I need a room with padded walls be for I have a break down lol. I dont know how much longer I can control my insanity..........and im being serious

i feel u bro...and rite now i smoke to maintain control (yes very unhealthy for me and im trying to quit)

[Chaoswolf]

hmm...well i pray that everything will be fine tomorro (prayer works :D) ive known a few friends dat experienced alot of pain and ive experienced a lil myself...i try to keep myself optimistic whenever troubles come but yea...i'll be praying for u ^^

if you honestly think prayer works then your more insane then I am XD

[diaperdei]

think what you want woof but ill be praying for hours on end all night just to help even if it does nothing

[Princess Felicia]

thank you everyone and wolf padded rooms are no fun let me tell you cause before you go into that room you get striped searched (o btw she also had me locked into a mental hom how i know about the strip search) and let me tell you those rooms they do it in are COLD and so are there hands

[Chaoswolf]

-shrinks- I cant wait..........

[kittykimmy]

*shudders*

[Princess Felicia]

hmm yes well have fun with the rapeage by the persons hand them man

[diaperdei]

*crys*

the horror T-T

[Princess Felicia]

yea you dont sit for a while let me tell yea

[kittykimmy]

if you honestly think prayer works then your more insane then I am XD

ey man...im devoted to these stuffs i had alot of issues myself and friends nd i kno i can rely on God for this

[diaperdei]

well i better start praying

princess if you ever need zanything please remeber im here for you just like you where there for me ;)

sorry im soundin to emotional a little -_-'''

[Princess Felicia]

lol its ok and i will Dei or is there anything else you wish me to call you

[Chaoswolf]

ey man...im devoted to these stuffs i had alot of issues myself and friends nd i kno i can rely on God for this

talking to no one really helps I guess lol. I just talk to myself alot and things are just peachy :D. Its really just thinking out loud

[diaperdei]

calll me anything i really dont mind


wolf you talk to yourself....yep cazy ;:P

[Princess Felicia]

i talk to my other personalitys useing computers and a word document and umm lol idk Dei

[diaperdei]

im just kiddin trust me i talk to myself most people do i used word documens before especially when streesing over programming and desighn problems >_<

[Princess Felicia]

aww poor dei *pokes her* just had to now then you need a nick name

[Chaoswolf]

ok lol and talking to myself is actually heriditary in my family XD. Seriously like everyone in my family is fucking insane or has some damn problem. But insanity is normality :D

[diaperdei]

nickname

._.

[Chaoswolf]

hey my nicknames wolf............and im ok with it :D

[Princess Felicia]

yesh but i need sleep so i shal think of it tomorow

[Princess Felicia]

o and we call you wolf cause we dont care enough to give you a cooler name

[diaperdei]

night ^-^

sleep tight dont letthe demons off the underworld bite




o_o
woah.....weird

[Chaoswolf]

Night and dont let the bedbugs crawl under you skin and lay eggs inside your flesh which will hatch and eat you from the inside out and then grow to a giant size and start feeding off of your family and then the whole world. GNight :D

[diaperdei]

you love to cross the lines between funny and beyond scary dont you >_>

RETORICAL QUESTION

[diaperdei]

goodnight felicia your in all our prayers

[kittykimmy]

How do u get such attention like this

[Chaoswolf]

I know its a retorical question but im gonna answer. Yes yes I do lol. Im insane remember? I no longer thing no I shouldnt say that, I think why the hell not? lets see what happens XD

[kittykimmy]

dat was to wolf btw

[diaperdei]

he gets attention by pluggin a toaster in his ear sticking his younge in it turning it on and typig what words come to his head

[Chaoswolf]

thanks anyway sorry I guess and goodnight have nice diaper dreams why dont ya? lol

[Chaoswolf]

......should I really go down as the insane and most hated person in the forum......hmmmmmm

[diaperdei]

wolf...that ship has already sailed

[diaperdei]

but we still ove you :3

[Chaoswolf]

yay :3. I usually try to still be loved :D. Seriously im a nicer guy in real life then on the interweb lol. I guess it allows me to vent my insanity without people really knowing me and giving me that awkward O_o hes insane stare lol

[diaperdei]

as long as you act normal in at least a few forums i think youll be loved always :P

[kittykimmy]

lol im pretty sure u do dat for attention...dats wut id do

[Chaoswolf]

lol ok

[Princess Felicia]

no one love you XD jk jk

[CatharticLluna]

Wow, that's intense. Honestly I can relate, I have quite a few mental issues myself, and I'm actually disabled because of it. Why aren't you getting help, like talk therapy, or on medications? I thought by law that anyone diagnosed as a paranoid schitzophrenic was at least prescribed them. And if you have financial issues, you can always apply for aid, like I did. At one point, I was borderline schitzo-affective and I had/have D.I.D., same as you. But now mostly it's the Bipolar, anxiety and O.C.D. that I have to deal with, and honestly they don't present much of a problem now that I'm leveled out with the medications. I lead a pretty normal life, save for not being able to work. I go to school, drive myself around.

But as far as having to deal with the encounter with your mother, I guess all you can do is mentally prepare yourself for a bit of emotional disarray. It would be one thing walking into it blind, but you already know that your mother is going to be a bit unstable, so just kind of mentally prepare and tell yourself that it's going to suck, but you're there to try and help her, and when you're done, you get to go home and have the satisfaction that at least you're trying to help your mother. My father is an alcoholic, and more often than not I try to stay away from him, lest he bring me down with him, but on occasion I do call him and tell him that I love him, and I try to take him to lunch once in a while to get him out of the house. Even though your mother might be upset at your little 'intervention', she will notice that you came and tried to do something good for her, and I'm sure a part of her will know that you love her and are trying to help. I'm sure a part of her loves you as well. So I think all you can do is be honest, don't drag in past issues, stick to the current topic and just tell her that you care about her and don't want to see her hurt or sick.

[Princess Felicia]

thats a read i couldnt completly read x.x lot read and yes i know to my granmda hasnt decided wat time we go there and i no let doctors know i no see them i no want meds I WILL NOT TAKE THEM so yea

[CatharticLluna]

In no way trying to be condescending, but is English not your native language? o.o;

[Princess Felicia]

rofl umm i think so XD as far as i know i learned Cali girl then english XD

[Chaoswolf]

Well I myself dont have any "mental issues" im just selectivly insane :D

[Princess Felicia]

are you makeing fun of me *GOES INSANE* jk

[Chaoswolf]

nope lol im just saying I dont have any physical signs of mental issues but for some reason I choose to be insane. -checks MRIs again- yup I guess I just choose to be crazy

[anifan5890]

I know of a whole bunch of possible things that could occur during your visit to your mom and right now most of the current possiblities are good if can manage to tolerate each others company for the duration of your visit to her house.

[Princess Felicia]

yes luckily it was posponed XD and good i dont think so

[Chaoswolf]

lmao well I guess your happy now. Sucks people just wont accept us for who we are >_<

[diaperdei]

tell me about it T~T

[kittykimmy]

lmao well I guess your happy now. Sucks people just wont accept us for who we are >_<
yes indeed >///<
i wonder how it would be like where society would actually accept as *starts drooling on Felicia's head*

[Princess Felicia]

Hey stop that

[kittykimmy]

*snaps out of deep thought* huh? what? *wipes his mouth*

[Princess Felicia]

>_< if you do that again i shall head but you

[diaperdei]

and your chest shall then be slobberey :P

[Princess Felicia]

*cleans my self up* discusting boys

[Chaoswolf]

yawn.....god I hate school....good thing im back home on here and listening to death metal

[Princess Felicia]

rock on man

[Chaoswolf]

as always lol

[Princess Felicia]

THE RAZORS EDGE :p

[Mistress]

Talking about the book?

[Chaoswolf]

lol cool oh and im still working on your request im wondering if you wanted her hair white or the strands on her hair white and have the rest purple with black. Your request wasnt to clear lol

[Princess Felicia]

meh it was for my game desings so yea it would be the three strands are white the rest black and purple and

AC/DC THE RAZORS EDGE

[Mistress]

You're taking request C.Wolf? Pic requests at that?

[Chaoswolf]

lol Im doing three right now ill let you know when im open k?

[Mistress]

I'd like to see your work before I make any requests C.Wolf, but I'll keep your offer in mind.

[Princess Felicia]

lol im going to change some probaly i want my picture to be perfict since its of my charecter design

[Chaoswolf]

X_x fine lol means erasing shit..........oh and try finding my art in the communal gallery twilight its ok.....I could do better if you want me to just takes me longer lol

[Princess Felicia]

lol this is only human form hes drawing for me twiligh XD in a gothic loli style dress

[Chaoswolf]

oh and twilight the requests are free so you wont lose anything other then the thought that I can draw well >.> lmao

[Princess Felicia]

just wait till demonian form in the mistress outfit XD RATED M FOR MATURE

[Chaoswolf]

wait what? O_o

[Princess Felicia]

lol that charecter has a few forms one of them is demon like

her demonian for she wears nothing but a black leather bra strapless. fishnet tights a skirt that is cut on the left side all the way up to 2 inches below the top of the skirt and high heal knee high leather dominatrix boots o and she has a whip for a weapon

[Chaoswolf]

Boner after school is nice XD thanks

[Princess Felicia]

... *slaps wolf* not till your done and if you make it good enough i might have you draw certain situatiions with it

[Chaoswolf]

mkay lmao but wait what do you want me to draw now? I need an organized specific list of what your request is or do I just stick with what I was originally told?

[Princess Felicia]

the one i already sent you once i say shes in perfect form i shall sned you the demonian form specs ok

[Chaoswolf]

ok youll have to remind me after im done with the first one lol. I only have 30 minutes on here b4 parents come home X_X this sucks I wish my comp was in my room lol

[Princess Felicia]

mine ish in my room XD

[Mistress]

Laptop is mine, but a big screen one is downstairs, good for watching music videos and stuff on.

[Princess Felicia]

lol o and i shall tell you a mistress pose after twilight has had you draw her

[Chaoswolf]

well does she still want a pic from me?

[Princess Felicia]

o she will trust me she will

[Mistress]

Nothing against you, but I don't want a pic of me done. i borrowed my Bro's OC, Amara, and a pic of her would violate the conditions of her usage. The avatar I'm using is of the closest character I could find that resembles her, Mariam of Beyblade V-Force. But as for pics, I'm not looking to get any right now. but like I said, I'll keep your card, C.Wolf.

[Chaoswolf]

ok lmao I dint know my art was good enough to want a request lol. Compared to so many other artists....but I guess its because its free lol

[Chaoswolf]

WHen have I had a card? Ive gone pro and I didnt even know lol

[Mistress]

Wow, the awkwardness of tying and post speed strikes again.

[Chaoswolf]

lmao eh oh and Im wondering if you like my art? lol I never like my art

[Mistress]

It's a hell of a lot better than what I can do. I'm still stuck with the whole "Don't go outside the lines" thing of basic artwork. LOL

[Chaoswolf]

dont worry lol its not to hard after awhile. My art really just needs more depth ppl tell me and yes color but I like sketching lol. Im making an acception for princess but I might start coloring more anyway to improve the quality and get more people to look at me art :3

[Princess Felicia]

you shall draw twilight when your done with my mistress one and i shall have the situation be very very nice hehehe

[Chaoswolf]

lol but she said it would be against some policy or w/e

[Princess Felicia]

>_< grrr dont make a scitso mad especialy when tht skitso isnt haveing a great day

[Chaoswolf]

fine ill make a random anime girl XD

[Princess Felicia]

meh but it shall be called twilight but that is for later ^.^

[Chaoswolf]

Well I have to go cya guys later

[Princess Felicia]

byebye smelly >_> some one needs a diapy change

[Mistress]

I'll go halfway with you both. C.Wolf, Draw a diaper pic of Mariam, that should be acceptable as terms for the agreement I have with my bro.

[Princess Felicia]

lol XD

[Chaoswolf]

ok and yeah I wish I had a diaper on me :3 lol

[Princess Felicia]

lol :p mine are in my closet

[Chaoswolf]

T^T please dont brag.......im going to try and get 20 bucks off my mom this week and order some lol

[Princess Felicia]

20 wont be enough to order some sorry man and you need a card

[Mistress]

She teases me to wolf, and at least you guys can get diapers. I won't be able to until I move out next year.

[Princess Felicia]

soory twilight *hugs*

[Chaoswolf]

lol 20 bucks is enough to get 8 bambinos :P ive done it b4. I was going to wait till I could buy the 48 pack but I need some noooooow lol

[Chaoswolf]

Apologize to her.......lol

[Princess Felicia]

calm down mate

[Chaoswolf]

(>-_->------o(fire) I am calm lol

[Mistress]

She already has, and whenshe doesn't, I just mention the Olympics.

[Chaoswolf]

lol? Im lost

[Chaoswolf]

Oh and money order to princess thats how I got them the first time ^_^ guess its only for the US lol

[Princess Felicia]

AHHHHH *charges wolf with my boken and smashes it on his head at the mention of olympics*

[Chaoswolf]

-dies forever-

[kittykimmy]

Q(-_-)--O(x_x)

[Chaoswolf]

-resurects like jebus

[Princess Felicia]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38ks0aNRz6M

o no you didnt chaos

[diaperdei]

(>-_->------o(fire) I am calm lol


lol a death attack :P

[Princess Felicia]

*Roars like a lion* (never said what kind of kitty i was like XD)

[Chaoswolf]

-howls like a blood thristy wolf from castlevania that is like 10 feet tall on all fours and 14 long lol