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terminator101 first of all sorry for that as i'm not english it's hard to search for the right wording sometimes ...
although i had thought about it myself that it woudn't be quite right ...
But thanks for the link (i wasn't really aware of the specifics only after a while that i was tricking my brain/body pretty well) well i guess i qualify for the first things not that other thing all the way down by any means.
The best part of the article must have have been this : "sexual infantilism" is also used medically as a synonym for
delayed puberty.
[4][25] The term "psychosexual infantilism" was used in
Sigmund Freud's theory of
psychosexual development to refer to individuals who had not matured through its hypothetical stages into
heterosexuality this pretty much cofirms it for better or worse since it was sad i never had any puberty and not really attracted to females or otherwise.