aroused by seeing a diapred kid in a movie ... what to do

[tkb]

well yesterday this movie was put on i think it was called Grown Ups it had a pretty old kid in it maybe even 4 year old still wearing diapers (which might have remind me of myself).
He wasn't a main charachter but got show quite often never wearing pants just Always diapers they even put something in his diaper (a wedding ring/present or whatver) and they where talking about who was gonna change him and such.
Well anyway after several appearances of him i noticed something was not quite right in my underpants ...
so i sneaked away and well turned out i was right i certainly was aroused by it a bit.
Well then i changed and was gonna walk my dogs to just not see that movie anymore but it got me thinking is my body/brain really substituting sexs for baby stuff am i really that far gone ...

Like i would have to wear an actual diaper to watch that damn movie
Now my question is what can i even do about it ?
Like deep down do i want to be a tolder/little kid still being Diapred that badly ... ? if a genie would ask me for a wish certainly not that.


To be fair i haven't even worn an actual diaper in a few months now that might have made it worse i could dispose of them pretty good but i was kinda tired of all the sneaky buisness ...
I might even have gotten Lucky in that time once that i didn't have any cause someone came unexpectedly for a sleep over.
Now i might even get my own place in like a year or a little more so that situation might be changing in the future.
Also it's not even that i care to wear Diapers all week but like once a week maybe 2 times is enough for those desires to fade kida.

[terminator101]

I just want to first say that you should be more careful about how you word the title of any of your threads. The title of this thread in particular might be misconstrued by some people as sounding pedophilic in nature which on first sight without reading your entire thread, might make this site and our community look bad. Probably a better title could have been "Concerns about a diapered child in a movie - Opinions appreciated."


Now, seeing a four year old in diapers whether in a movie or IRL is not highly unusual nowadays. The number of children over three years old who are still not yet potty trained has increased in the recent years (See the following article -> http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk...-a7224976.html). The situation is due to many factors like families that have both working parents who do not have the time to properly potty train their child and the improved, extra absorbancy of diapers/training pants that can cause confusion in the child during potty training which often leads to potty training failure.


What you described yourself going through was actually one of the causes for why some (Not all, as others may be affected by another one of the causes or a combination of the causes or even all of them - It depends upon the individual) ABDLs and ARDLs are the way that they are (See the following article -> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paraphilic_infantilism). Psychologically, it is known as "Erotic Location Target Error" (See the following section in the same article -> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paraph...n_target_error). According to that article and what you previously related, basically what you may have experienced is a sexual attraction to the idea of yourself being a diapered child when you saw the a-fore mentioned parts of that movie featuring the diapered child. Your concerns (Hopefully, for your own sake) do NOT focus on having a DIRECT sexual attraction to diapered children. Though, if you do have such a desire for the latter then you would qualify to be in another, different group of "people" (In the looses sense of the definition) which are not the same as ABDLs/ARDLs (See the following section in the same article -> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paraph...ism#Pedophilia). I hope that this clears things for you and really helps you out!

[tkb]

@terminator101 first of all sorry for that as i'm not english it's hard to search for the right wording sometimes ...
although i had thought about it myself that it woudn't be quite right ...

But thanks for the link (i wasn't really aware of the specifics only after a while that i was tricking my brain/body pretty well) well i guess i qualify for the first things not that other thing all the way down by any means.

The best part of the article must have have been this : "sexual infantilism" is also used medically as a synonym for delayed puberty.[4][25] The term "psychosexual infantilism" was used in Sigmund Freud's theory of psychosexual development to refer to individuals who had not matured through its hypothetical stages into heterosexuality this pretty much cofirms it for better or worse since it was sad i never had any puberty and not really attracted to females or otherwise.

[terminator101]

I understand. It's no problem. Just try be careful with the wording for the sake of us all. Give some thought into it before typing anything - For the more serious topics, you can first type out what you're thinking about in Notepad/Wordpad/Word and then read it yourself. Correct anything that doesn't make sense or might be misconstrued and then post the finished text afterwards. If English isn't your first language then you can try using Google Translate to translate the text back into your native language to see whether what you wrote is alright (Note: Google Translate is a machine translation, so there are some things that may get lost in the translation).


It is good to hear that you don't belong to the latter group of "people" and that you belong to our community instead.


I can't see you in person but are you saying that you haven't experienced any physical signs of change that are usually associated with puberty? You definitely have the hormonal changes associated with puberty since you can get aroused (Not to mention that erections are considered a part of the physical changes of puberty in the previously linked article). Also, everyone here supposedly has gone through puberty (This site is R18 only [Anyone younger than 18 is not allowed/banned if found out in order to protect the continuation of this site] and puberty usually ends for most people by the end of age 18 -> https://www.nhs.uk/Livewell/puberty/...rty-signs.aspx). IMHO, I think that you are misinterpreting the fact that you haven't matured into heterosexuality as a sign that you haven't gone through puberty. There are people here who are heterosexual, homosexual, bi-sexual, transgender and even pansexual (Yes, we had an interesting lady who visited us once who said that she was pansexual -> http://diaperedanime.com/forum/showt...ight=pansexual) who are all full grown adults. Some of us may want to go back to those earlier years of innocence as a baby or toddler but we ultimately have to face the fact that we are adults until someone invents an AR time machine or AR potion!

[tkb]

It's not like i never actually had any puberty, it''s just that i never really matured as a person and going by what information you gave me when i was suppose to
i kind of went backwards to some extend

But why i even said that was because i never had any rebellious phase or anything remotely like that.
And because of that after grade school i sometimes got picked on even on special schools cause some saw me as a easy target then ... because i wasn't so mean spirited or hyper active etc ...
Looking back at that i'm sure it must have at least gotten a little impact that most boys where starting to get (forced) feelings for females and i wanted to be a baby beeing possibly cared for by a girl rather then having sexs with here

Next week i actually have an appointment with a psychologist about a completly unrealted thing it will be the results from some tests about general mental state/intelligence i did not came up with it myself but rather some institution was curious about some of these results sine they weren't done for a long time.
But point is for just a second i was thinking of maybe bringing the fetish up with maybe the condition that she wasn't gonna tell or report it so just that i could get some opinion on it ?
What could i even expect to get out of something like that ?

Just for the sake of curiosity it could mess up a lot of things so i'm pretty sure i will not talk about it unless by some miracle she will find out something on here own xd
But it's kind of a curiosity killed the cat situation.

[terminator101]

I see. So from a medical standpoint, you already went through puberty. It's just from a psychological viewpoint, you haven't matured as an adult. Don't worry. I doubt that anyone here would look down upon you since there are some of us here who are or have friends here who are like minded. Everything else that you described about desiring a female caretaker with you as the baby being cared for is inline with the ABDL/ARDL mindset in terms of fantasy desires/RPs (You are just another fish in our sea here that is full of other similar fishes)!


As for speaking about your fetish with the psychologist that you mentioned, I would only do so if there is/was a document, that you have/had to sign before beginning anything, with writing that states explicitly that all conversations concerning any topics discussed with the institution's staff (Including the psychologist) during your interactions with the staff will be kept confidential. Only after such a document has been signed, should you feel free to discuss your fetish with the psychologist. You could even print out and have the person read about the information in that Wikipedia article that I linked to about Paraphillic Infantilism so that the person knows that you are concerned enough to have done some research into the subject. Perhaps the psychologist can then discuss with you about the information in that Wikipedia article and perhaps even share some information that is not already covered by that article or her opinion on the subject. However, don't say anything about your fetish if there is no such document to be/that was signed. You never know what kind of repercussions may arise from you discussing things that are off the topic of for whatever your appointment was originally scheduled. With a signed document that guarantees confidentiality, you are legally covered from any exposure to the public about your condition.

[tkb]

Thanks for the tips within less then 2 days i have the appointment but i'm pretty sure i will not talk about it to much risky stuff ... like getting caught might even be better then going through someone like this.

Like My mom almost caught me once ... and she also said a few years ago that if i still haven't gotten any sexual feelings once however i might get problem at a later age well if she only knew ... but she has already said once how weird she finds that thing.
And My dad doesn't even comprehend it.
And If my mature little (smoking drinking tattooed) sister found out it would even be worse she might never talk to me again or she would diaper me on the spot and let me drink out of my baby bottle and put my pacifier in my mouth and demand i pee/crap in it and have a good laugh ...
So knowing that it's not a good idea to tell ...

[terminator101]

No problemo. You're welcome~! That is what we all in this community with this fetish should supposedly do - Support each other (If not, then who?)!


I wouldn't say that it is not good to talk about it. It is better to talk about your feelings about your fetish than to keep them "Bottled inside" which could possibly to lead to other problems (Stress, feelings of guilt, self denial, etc) in the future, as time goes by. What is good is to talk about it to the right person(s) under the right circumstance(s) (e.g. If the psychologist that you will see in your appointment is bound to confidentiality through a legal document of confidentiality signed by you and the institution's legal representative [Pre-signed prior to you signing], then IMHO, it would be a great opportunity for you to talk about your fetish since she legally cannot even tell your parents and little sister about it, not without breaking the contract that you signed [If you did sign such a document - Again, if you did not then don't talk about it given how your family would react if they found out from an outside source like the psychologist!], the law and risk losing her job since you could then sue the company for breach of contract). Of course, it's still your own decision to make and responsibility to take whether or not you tell her about it.

[tkb]

I got the results from the test in terms of knowledge and vocabulary/using words i'm above average. however processing (short term) information and mental state, communication, planning etc i'm really low.
Which would probably make me a great baby (like a 5 year old wearing diapers being cared for etc) with exception of the intellectual level i would probably be better off that way .
How far society is concerned i'm just taking up goverment money maybe only able to work a few hours a week in the far future under a safe environment with no stress etc.

[terminator101]

Okay. ... Well, good for you! A word of warning though, every job has its stress. Even the ones that people enjoy doing have some stress coupled with it as IRL there are things like deadlines and quotas that have to be met in order for workers to remain employed (Everyone has a boss that they have to deal with)!