maybe moving out soon under special supervision and consequences

[tkb]

So i just saw this proggame on TLC that was in the background that made me feel kinda unconfortable with alot of diaper talk and little kids stuff.
My parents where kinda making fun of the programme and it just so happends they left for something don't even know how long they will be gone but yet before i knew it i was already in diapers with a bib and animal feet sucking on my bottle ...
This could be a big problem today ...
But that it got so easily triggred ... lately alot of things have been going wrong which kinda get's me into the mood of me just wanting to be a helpless clumsy baby (that i kinda am) and be taken care for.

But i have almost run out of diapers and maybe in the near future this project will be started up where i under complete protectiveness but living sort of on my own.
And while in that project it will be hard to get diapers ? so i'm really on a confused situation as what to do ...
Maybe this big baby will already be cought today though ...

As i start ignoring my fetish for a while it only seems to bottle up more at some points but with maybe moving out soon, i'm kinda in the crossroads of what to do.
Of course i could try to get away from it a few year(s) and once the supervision will slowly let loose maybe get back to it.

[true blue]

It is not healthy to bottle anything up.

if I am going to be honest you have to do what is best for you I know in my experience going through puberty this feelings were near enough unbearable but I learned from it.

Comments will always upset people for the rest of time but it takes a certain person to rise above it and move on without a chip on their shoulder .

my advice would be maybe mentally arrange dates in your head maybe 5 times a month where you can fullfill your needs and if it happens to be problematic then reduce it afterall it is about self control.

I wish you all the best

[terminator101]

Originally Posted by tkb

... maybe in the near future this project will be started up where i under complete protectiveness but living sort of on my own. And while in that project it will be hard to get diapers ? so i'm really on a confused situation as what to do ...

I think that you're getting ahead of yourself here! You said that the protective "project" (Special home care program?) may be be started in the near future, so there's still the possibility that it won't happen at all! You shouldn't let your fears get the better of you. Did your aging(?) parents specifically say to you that you might be possibly placed into such a "project" if indeed it were ever created or is your imagination just running wild? Maybe you should calm down a bit.

Originally Posted by tkb

... But that it got so easily triggred ... lately alot of things have been going wrong which kinda get's me into the mood of me just wanting to be a helpless clumsy baby (that i kinda am) and be taken care for.

What you described is actually not uncommon behavior for many ABDLs/ARDLs (ie. - Someone who has Paraphillic Infantilism. See the following article -> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paraphilic_infantilism. See in particular, the sections "Characteristics and behaviors" -> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paraph..._and_behaviors and "Erotic location target error" -> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paraph...n_target_error), so you shouldn't be ashamed of it. You should embrace what you are. If in the future, you do find a partner who understands what you are and/or is willing to accommodate your lifestyle then good for you (I know of a person here who has found such a partner and is now married with that partner. That person is one of very "Lucky ones"). If you do find a partner who does not understand what you are and/or is not willing to accommodate your lifestyle then you will need to make some hard changes if you want to remain in that relationship (Who wants to die alone?). If either of those cases don't happen to you then you need to ensure that you have your independence. Without your independence, you couldn't possibly continue your lifestyle (Unless your assigned home attendant understands what you are and/or is willing to accommodate your lifestyle).


True blue is right. It is not healthy to bottle anything up (Especially your urges of this particular nature). If your options are limited then you'll have to exercise some self control so that you can still fulfill your needs and be able to continue on with your life~!


I hope that things work out in a positive manner for you, my friend~!

[tkb]

Originally Posted by terminator101

I think that you're getting ahead of yourself here! You said that the protective "project" (Special home care program?) may be be started in the near future, so there's still the possibility that it won't happen at all! You shouldn't let your fears get the better of you. Did your aging(?) parents specifically say to you that you might be possibly placed into such a "project" if indeed it were ever created or is your imagination just running wild? Maybe you should calm down a bit.

It's not anything that special really just regular training to be more independent so at a later time i can almost be reduced to nothing.
And yes i know it's not good to bottle up things but i'm just a pretty screwed up individual actually being really smart with some stuff but not really fitting in the social mould which get's me into this escape-ism.
Paraphillic Infantilism it must certainly be but i also get a kick out of cosplaying cute mascot charachters and acting helpless so it's also a bit of an Inferiority complex (where most People especially males would want something badass instead).
And thinking of such charachters being diapred can also get me a boner ...

[terminator101]

Originally Posted by tkb

It's not anything that special really just regular training to be more independent ...

IMHO, it appears that you'd benefit from such a training program once you've gone through it, so it might actually be a good thing that you should welcome rather than a bad thing that you should be worried about.

Originally Posted by tkb

... i'm just a pretty screwed up individual actually being really smart with some stuff but not really fitting in the social mould ...

It sounds like you're saying that you might have a mild case of Savant syndrome -> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Savant_syndrome, sort of like the character Raymond in the movie Rain Man -> https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rain_Man#Plot but not to such an extreme degree where you are unable to take care of yourself.