The Revolution of Thought

[Corey]

For those of you that know me, doubtful that any do due to the constant change of faces, you know that I have been on and off this site for sometime. This is most commonly due to factors in life that revolutionize thought process and how everything, including this cute little fetish of ours, tends to be perceived. Many occurrences such as moving and aging often cause you to forget who you once were, and why you enjoyed certain things. This is exactly what happened to me in the not so distant past. In forgetting, I also found myself craving the meaning of affection and the feeling of satisfaction that I received from factors of infantilism. Then I found the truth behind the fetish and realized why I needed it, and why I found it so incredibly safe. I was finally back to my old self again. Most people would classify this as binge and purge cycle, but I believe it goes much deeper then that!

Truth be told this is my story, and this topic isn't meant to inform you of my life or my "return" to DA. This is actually a research project that I am conducting for self enlightenment and I need your help. Do you have a story in which you realized you may not need this fetish anymore, or have you experienced something that changed your viewpoint of the fetish. I want to hear your story and thoughts on this matter! Please either send me a private message or reply to this post with your experiences concerning why you like what we all do.

[trxdltree]

way way back i bought some depends one of them leaked on my bed the spot was too big to cover up so i had to tell my mom she cleaned it up i through out the rest of the depends. i felt so guilty and ashamed. later i found that i missed one i decided to use it and be done forever. well when i wet it i realized i still liked them that is when i snapped and said forget this i like diapers and i don't care what others think.

[Nanami_Lucia35]

Hm, i suppose the few times i tried to give it up, it was strange really. It felt odd not wearing diapers, and so i started wearing them again. When i didn't get them all the time i hated it. I really did, i felt so uncomfortable without them, i felt vulnerable, unsafe, unsecure. I tried to give it up when i was like 15 and then again when i was 16. neither time was a success, i quit trying to give it up and just embraced it. My views changed from "god this is embarrassing" to "well, this is who i am, and if you don't like it, f**k off"

[brabbit1987]

I hated it so much because I liked it. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I felt I was messed up in the head majorly. I tried stopping many many times. Each attempt was a major failure and brought me into a depression that grew each time I tried to quit. It got to the point where I started considering suicide, though other reasons involved as well.

What changed my view point on this? Learning! I decided to look into it much deeper then I normal would and I came across AB/DL. I started reading about it. At that moment I felt like a found a piece of myself that I didn't understand very well. I got to talk with many other who where into the same thing.

After that, I realized it was not a big deal. It was something that I liked and I should embrace it instead of running away from it.

i have developed a rather strong opinions about neutrality of interests. pretty much a "to each their own" mentality. this can be partially attributed to diapers, and this can be partially attributed to other interests i happen to have.

years ago, i got into pokemon. this is not something that is really embarrassing, but something my younger, insecure self figured it was to be embarrassed about. i would hide my interests as best i could, and i would make long stories about why i liked what i liked, to defend my interest when others noticed. i did this for a long time until i saw the leagues of others that had more embarrassing interests (like twilight, for instance) that got teased. my empathy for those people grew because i knew what being embarrassed for an interest was like, (as dumb as my embarrassment was) so i defended them.

during this time that i defended people for having interests that people thought were weird, i managed to become at peace with my interests, and at peace with other people's interests. i had started to develop a partially neutral mindset towards interests in general. only partial because i was never really at peace with some of the stuff i would find on the internet that i had these weird urges to look for. among these, were diapers, and spanking. i had no clue why i liked these, but my sexual interest for it bugged me immensely. after doing a considerable amount of research, i discovered rule 34. this shock meme is something that i had not expected to turn me into a paragon of neutrality, but it did, here is how.

rule 34, if it exists, there IS porn of it. why does this exist? the shock value and the lols that it can bring seem reason enough for it to exist, but it is weird that it is so extensive. why was it so extensive? the truth is, rule 34 encompasses anything because it is human nature to sexualize, and there is no limit to what people can sexualize. most of rule 34 is drawn by people who are genuinely passionate and interested about what they are drawing. and while that may seem weird, there is probably someone else that this content genuinely interests. if an artist can convey their passion in a way that can touch someone else, then the work of the artist is complete. rule 34 isn't really a shock meme, but a reminder for those with weird fetishes that they are not alone, that there is someone else who has the same interest as them, and that it is ok for them to like what they like. rule 34 will take the teasing for you, it is in the public eye, not small fetish groups that people try to pick on. (it is a much bigger target)

this realization is what finally made me at peace with my fetishes, and made me completely neutral about other people's interests, fetish or not.

[Corey]

Thank you guys so much for your input I really appreciate it!

Nanami: You had an interesting way of thinking about this! I find it intregueing that you were embarrassed by this so much that you tried to give up. I also love the ending to your story, this is who I am, if you don't like it, then screw you!"

Brabbit: I too have had times where I thought that I was messed up in the head and you make a very good point! You are not along and it is definitely a revelation to start embracing yourself as a DL!


Thingywhat: I have never heard of rule 34 until now, but you do make a very interesting point. It is a world where anything is possible, a person could be sexually attracted to soda cans! I found your story about pokemon to be a very incredible one and actually touched my heart because I too know the feeling!